Panduh!

I was going to make a proper blog post, but yea, fuck that. I have way too much on my plate right now and the last thing I need to be doing is blogging.

Maybe in a month or so I will have my shit together.

It is really difficult thinking of new things to cook each week. I’m sitting here trying to plan out my menu so I can go ahead and make the grocery list for Sunday. But here I am, just staring at a blank piece of paper. Its funny because I’ve got loads of cook books and recipes bookmarked online, but yet, none of its really helping. Or maybe I am just being lazy. I think its the latter.

Bleh. Life has been ok, I guess. Other than lack of sleep. I am sure my sleep schedule will sort it self out eventually. At least I hope so.

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May 05, 2012

Late May 2012 – Late June 2012

June 2012 – September 2012

September 2012 – December 2012

December 2012 – Late January 2013

Late January 2013 – March 2013

March 2013 – May 2013

May 2013 – UNTIL I GET BORED

Its been a year since I started dying my hair. Best decision I ever made and I don’t know why I waited so long. It makes me feel good about myself when I get my hair did. I feel like a million bucks right now. I totally see myself as a modern day, chubby, Wilma Flinstone in that picture with my current hair. I loves it.

Its fun to look back at how my hair evolved over the past year. I’m not going to lie, I thought I would never get rid of that blue. It was in my hair for a good eight months before it was finally light enough to dye over.

Hooray for feeling happy for a few days!

I never wrote about this, but last Summer (July), I saw on Twitter that Anthony Green was having a free concert in DC at the Kennedy center. Naturally, I decided to go, even though it was on a whim. It was probably one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. After the show, Anthony did a meet & greet with all the people that stayed. I was so happy and wish that I had someone with me at the time to share the experience and to take a proper photo.

I was giddy as a school girl and literally skipped away with glee. Anthony’s music really helps me through all the bad times and the good times. Plus, I have a real boner for him, to be honest. He is a cutie patootie, for sure.

I haven’t seen him play live since then, even though I was supposed to (THANKS ANXIETY!), but I am hoping I will work up the nerve to go see him again on the next tour. DOUBT IT.

Hooray for checking things off my life list and finally writing about it ten months later, just about!

Today I ate:

Clif Bar. A latte. Smoothie (1 Banana, 1 Apple, 5 large strawberries, and a splash of almond milk). 10 or so baby carrots with about 2 tbs of ranch. A salad (black beans, corn, red onions, bell pepper, tomato, pico de gallo, ceasar dressing, spinach & romaine). Small grilled chicken and cheddar sandwich from potbelly (lettuce, mayo, onion, tomato).  Half of a snowball. Petit fours & some tea. Cool ranch taco supreme. Cheesy Gordita Crunch. Lots of water.

I did do some pilates. Woo?

I started off good, but kinda fell off the band wagon at dinner. Then I got hungry later in the night. Maybe I can convince James to eat a later dinner and so I can avoid late night taco bell? Mayhaps.

I don’t know why sometimes I choose to write here instead of just writing in livejournal. It really makes no difference. It all goes to the same place.

This past weekend was terrible. It started out pretty good on Friday, though. I went over to Jesse’s and we went out for Indian food and ice cream. Saturday morning rolls around and we go out for breakfast at  Sonic. We both get breakfast burritos. However, mine almost made me instantly sick.

We went back to his place after eating breakfast and after a couple of hours I was like, I need to go home I don’t feel so well. And that’s when it all started to crumble. Later on in the day, I lost that breakfast burrito and I don’t think I want to eat at Sonic ever again. I’ve essentially been in bed since Saturday afternoon.

Since then, I’ve managed to hold down a piece of toast and a thin slice of turkey and that was last night. This morning, I had a bowl of cereal and it seems to be staying. However, I still have the poops (TMI) and feel super dizzy whenever I try and get up. I’ve been drinking water and coconut water. I think later tonight, I am going to try and attempt a real dinner. I think lack of food is probably what is making me feel bad at this point.

Last night, I did sweat out my fever, so that is gone along with the body aches.

I haven’t weighed myself in a couple of weeks, but I am sure after this, I will have managed to drop a couple of pounds. I guess that is the only good side effect of being sick.

I did wake up to snow this morning, which I was pretty happy about. It didn’t really snow a lot this winter, so I was disappointed.

Weighed myself today and I am three pounds lighter! Better than none.

Last week I did pilates twice and walked the dogs three times. I tracked my calories four days out of the week. I ate a bit better, but still had a ton of ice cream. At least it was vegan ice cream, right? I wish it really made a difference but ice cream no matter what  kind is always going to be unhealthy. I didn’t buy any new ice cream at the grocery store last night, so that may help. However, we went to an Asian market and I bought a few different types of candy/sweets. I don’t know what is wrong with me.

Today, I haven’t had anything but water and a Clif bar so far, mainly because I haven’t felt very hungry. I plan on making a salad and flat bread pizza in a bit for dinner. I also managed to do some pilates and organize the kitchen cabinets.

I feel alright today.

P.S. Happy March!

264. That is what the scale said to me today, and it doesn’t really make me feel good at all.  I am tired of being fat because I just don’t feel good most of the time and I know its because I am fat. I don’t really feel ugly, though, so I guess that’s good.

I know I’ve gained weight ever since I started dating Jesse because he was a bad influence on me when it came to eating. He encouraged me to eat not-so-healthy things and I would always feel so guilty and sick afterwards. Its time to put a stop to it and start eating how I really want and need to eat.

What I ate today:

Breakfast/Lunch: Clif Bar & an iced latte

Afternoon snack: Small orange & banana smoothie

Dinner: One small bowl of greek lemon rice soup that I made plus a Mushroom melt sandwich from potbelly.

Late night snack: James brought home a brownie from 7-11 for me as a treat. I couldn’t resist eating it, unfortunately.

I probably consumed about 1700ish worth of calories today. If it weren’t for the brownie, I would’ve been doing alright, I think.

I even exercised today! I did ten minutes of pilates and then I took the dogs on a 20 minute walk.

Lets hope this day sets the tune for many days to come. I just want to feel better.