Day 203 – Waiting for Pizza

24 Jul

203 - Waiting for pizza

The day after my birthday, I experienced ‘post-birthday blues’, which is still lingering. Yesterday was hard. So many sad & lonely feelings. I didn’t make dinner because of it. Went and got some pizza that turned out to be pretty mediocre, but I guess it was better than nothing. I ended up staying awake all night because I was just too sad to sleep. Such a lovely feeling, but not really.

202 – Thirty-one

23 Jul

202 - Thirty-One

I turned thirty-one on Wednesday. I don’t really like the idea of being over thirty, but then at the same time age is nothing but a number to me. I’m conflicted on how to feel about getting older.

The day was really nothing special. I felt pretty lonely and sad for most of the day if I am being honest. The night before I couldn’t sleep and ended up staying awake all night. I took a two hour nap after I ate the breakfast J went and got for me before he went to work.

I woke up from my nap, made myself a latte, and worked on getting myself ready to go out for dinner.

I made reservations at Woodberry Kitchen. I went there last year on my birthday for the very first time and it was good enough I wanted to go there again this year.

We started out with deviled eggs to split, which I could honestly eat 30 of them and be happy. I ordered the watermelon salad, which had these super tasty heirloom tomatoes. Those tomatoes. For my main course, I chose the oven roasted trout. It came with some veggies and some sort of sauce. I enjoyed it, but I didn’t like the hominy that was in the sauce. I’ve never had hominy before, so I didn’t know.

The dessert. We split the honey pie with blackberries. I also got 3 different scoops of complimentary ice cream and sorbet because they took too long to bring out my second cocktail. This was probably my favorite part along with the cocktails I ordered. I could probably just go there again and skip everything and just order drinks and dessert and would be happy.

What I really want to know is how they knew it was my birthday? I am the one that made the reservations. James didn’t tell them because he knows I would murder him if he did that. It really baffles me. Oh well. I guess I won’t really complain about it because it was still a nice evening.

Day 201 – Strawberries For My Birthday

21 Jul

201 - Strawberries for my birthday

Day 201 – Strawberries For My Birthday

I tried so hard to wake up today at an earlier time. I still ended up waking up past noon. I want to get in the habit of waking up early before school starts so it won’t be so brutal. I’ve never had an easy time at being an early riser. Its so hard for me. Being a night-owl comes natural for me. I’d much rather stay up all night and sleep all day.

I made hot dogs for dinner even though I didn’t feel like it. I didn’t want to cook anything, but I need to get in the habit of cooking again, especially so I can make recipes to post on my food blog. I fell off the cooking bandwagon these past few weeks. Its too hot to be turning on the oven or boiling a pot of water on the stove, but I just need to suck it up and do it.

Went to the grocery store. That was pretty much the highlight of my day. Oh, I did redeem my Starbucks birthday reward. I got a size larger than I normally do only because it was free. I’m kinda paying for it now, though. Caffeine generally doesn’t effect me, but if I have like more than one coffee drink in a day it gives me a headache.

I’ve been writing a lot lately and its been good for me.

Day 200 – Too Many Anxieties

21 Jul

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Day 200 – Too Many Anxieties

Yesterday evening, I decided I wanted to try and jog a little bit. I would like to eventually be able to run a 5K. I don’t like walking around in my neighborhood, much less trying to run because I just don’t like being starred at or watched. I decided to go the track at a nearby high school because I felt like there wasn’t going to be many people and maybe I would be less judged.

Wrong. There were tons of people. I ran for a total of a minute and a half before panic set in. Too many eyes. As a fat girl with giant boobs, I feel like a major beacon. I feel like I am being judged because I am fat. “Oh, fat girl struggling to run”. I don’t know why I feel this way, but I wish I didn’t. I guess a minute and a half is better than what I did on the previous day: zero. After my failed attempt to jog, I did walk 3 more laps around the track, completing a mile.

Despite my failure, yesterday was a successful day. I managed to double my step/movement goal, doubled my calorie burn, and almost met my exercise goal. My watch has been a great motivator since I got it earlier this month. Now, if I can get it to motivate me to clean the bathroom.

I rewarded myself with a Drumstick ice cream cone from 7-11. J judged me for wanting ice cream after exercising, but I justified my want for ice cream by explaining that it was better for me to have exercised and eat ice cream than to just eat the ice cream without having exercised at all. But he still continued to make me feel guilty for it. Meh.

I’m trying and that’s all I can do.

Days 197 – 199

20 Jul

197 - Strawberry Surprise

197 – Strawberry Surprise

 

 

  198 - To the Park

198 – To The Park

 

199 - National Ice Cream Day

199 – National Ice Cream Day

This weekend was kinda meh. I’ve been struggling with tummy pains which I think are from an ulcer and then my back has been giving me trouble, too. So many pains.

I did get a nice random package in the mail on Friday from someone on sendsomething.net. It was full of strawberry related items, including origami paper. Of course I had to google instructions on youtube later that night to make one of my own. It was too complex for me, which is great because I am not an expert paper folder. There was a pack of strawberry Hi-Chews (candy) in the package and I may have eaten the whole thing in less than 24 hours. I am not one for candy, but I could not stop eating these.

I was almost successful in recreating my favorite Red Velvet Latte that I get at this place in the city called Teavolve, but I think I am missing something.. Just have to figure it out. Its a tea based latte, but I always get a shot of espresso in mine.

Took Oscar to the park and did a short walk around. I was in a rather grumpy mood most of the weekend. I did make up for it on Sunday and took him for a longer walk once it cooled down, but man, it was still 90 degrees at 8pm. Ugh. GIVE ME ALL THE AC! It did feel good to get up and moving, though. I wish I wasn’t so lazy and took him for longer walks all the time.

Sunday was National Ice Cream Day, but I didn’t really participate. I did take this cute photo, though. When I scrolled through instagram before attempting sleep, all the ice cream photos really made me want an ice cream cone, but I did not cave! I so badly wanted to walk across the street to 7-11 and get a drumstick. I resisted! I don’t think my tummy would have agreed anyway, with the current state its in.

Watched the movie, Chef. I thought it was ok, but not great. I found it inspiring and it made me want to keep chipping away at my food blog.

Week 28 in Photos

18 Jul

190 - Stair Visits

190 – Stair Visits

191 - A Really Good Burger

191 – A Really Good Burger

192 - Blurry Mess

192 – Blurry Mess

193 - Can't Get Enough

193 – Can’t Get Enough

194 - Bridesmaid Dress Try On

194 – Bridesmaid Dress Try On

195 - Puzzle Piece

195 – Puzzle Piece

196 - Just Need to Lay Down

196 – Just Need to Lay Down

Week 27 in Photos

17 Jul

183 - Beer & Sushi

183 – Beer & Sushi

184 -  Patriotic Cornhole

184 – Patriotic Cornhole

185 - Dog & His Ball

185 – A Dog & His Ball

186 - Ginger Ale & Upset Tummies

186 – Ginger Ale & Upset Tummies

187 - In the Alley

187 – In the Alley

188 - Tiles

188 – Tiles

189 - Evening Walk

189 – Evening Walk

Uncustomary Love

14 Jul

Uncustomary Love Kickstarter Image

My friend, Uncustomary, has launched a kickstarter campaign to help fund publishing a book on self-love. I love this idea! If anyone should be writing a book on self-love, it should be her.  I like her positive energy that she tries to spread around Baltimore. I love all the whimsical things she does like putting googly eyes on inanimate objects or hosting muffing eating contests. Mary is a magical & sparkly type-of-gal, but she is also real. She knows what its like to be in dark place, and she wants to help others to know that they are not alone with their feelings. help them learn to see the world in a positive light, and to love themselves as they are.

I hope she reaches her goal. The goal is $2,600. The deadline is August 12th. There are lots of rewards, and as long as you pledge $25 you’ll get a copy of the book when it’s out, ETA: December 2015.

“A book about loving yourself & celebrating life. Steps on how to make every day magical, and a reminder that you’re already beautiful”.

Go visit her Kickstarter page for a video, which gives you a good idea on who and what Uncustomary is about, and maybe help her reach her goal of spreading positivity.

Week 26 in Photos

8 Jul

175 - Virginia

176 – Virgina

176 - Biscuithead

177 – Biscuit Head

178 - Wing Bonez

178 – Wing Bonez

179 - Creepy in JC Penny

179 – Creepy in JC Penny

180 - CLT Beer

180 – CLT Beer

181 - Crazy Faces

181 – Crazy Faces

182 - Homeward Bound

182 – Homeward Bound

Week 25 in Photos

6 Jul

169 - Pink & Green

169 – Pink & Green

169 - Cute Apartments

170 – Cute Apartments

 

171 - Grilling Out

171 – Grillin’ Out

 

172 - Making Lasagna

172 – Making Lasagna

 

172- Alewife Date

173 – Alewife Date

 

173 - Leaving the Worst Dinner.

174 – Leaving the Worst Dinner.

 

175 - Why do I keep drinking these?

175 – Why Do I Keep Drinking These?