Panduh!

Monday, May 7th marked six months having Bell’s Palsy, so I decided to make a quick vlog talking about it.

Its been awhile since I’ve talked about it and since today marks week 10 of having it, I decided to make a video. Sorry for the not so good quality, but I don’t have a stand for my phone so I have to use my iMac. Oh well, next time.

Hope everyone is having a good start to their week.

I made a vlog/video. I went back and watched it after I made it and geez it is hard to understand me. I need subtitles to understand myself. That is ridiculous. Anyway, I’m going to post it here for my two audience members.

Its such a dreary day and I used my iMac to make the video.. so its a little dark, despite me having all the lights on in the house.

So, yesterday, my eye started to not want to stay open or stay closed. It was just doing its own thing. I thought I had something stuck in my eye at first, but then I woke up today and it was still happening. As the day progressed, I went to Whole Foods to pick up some things and before I left, I picked up an iced tea from Starbucks. That is when I realized something might be wrong because I was having difficulty using a straw. Half of my mouth was not functioning. I then called up my friend, Billy, as I always do on drives through the city and I realized I was having trouble speaking. I started to panic.

I kinda already knew what was happening, but I wasn’t sure. A few years ago, I had this epic face twitch that would not go away. It would cause my entire face to clench up at times making it seem I was impersonating Elvis. It pretty much happened all the time for two years or so and it eventually went away. I looked it up and researched it several times and Bell’s Palsy (basically facial paralysis) always came up, so maybe its related to what’s happening now? I have no clue.

James left work early to take me to the doctor. I knew what they were going to tell me, but I really hoped they would tell me something else. Nope. At least, for once, we got a decent doctor at Patients First. Normally that place is plain out awful and it feels like they are just reading something off of WebMD to me. Sad, but true. They tested me for Lyme’s disease but I am pretty sure I’m not going to have that or any other viral infection. I don’t feel sick? The doctor wrote me a prescription for some antiviral medication, but my god that stuff was expensive. $106! I passed on that. Too expensive; did not do.

I do know, there isn’t a whole lot to be done about it other than to ride it out and wait for it to go away. Its pretty annoying in just the day and a half I’ve had it! I’m hoping its stress related, but then again I don’t feel anymore stressed than I have been. So, I don’t know. I would just like some basic skills back, like being able to eat like a proper person. I had spaghetti for lunch today… mistake. Red sauce and noodles were everywhere by the time I was done. Pretty lame, if you ask me.

I feel really lame for complaining about it, to be honest. Like its some sort of petty problem, but the way my brain works, petty problems always seem to make my emotions snowball and here I am feeling like crap about everything. I’m sure I’ll feel a little bit better about it tomorrow.